Wednesday, January 23, 2008
no time! // 7:36 PM
no time to post up all the pictures ):
no time to blog a long post.
no time to go out with siaoyouji on sat.
no time to enjoy myself.
but how come i got time to stone in a room and think of what to tell haoxiang?
it doesn't matter what i'm doing, but i always spaced out and everything comes back to me in a flash. And then, i'll started to tear and talk to the air on what i wanted to say.
Hao Xiang.
A name that i've finally mustered enough courage to type out.
And i managed to write down what i wanted to say to him. Out on a piece of paper, and soon posted on my blog.
I miss Han Wei aka nutter. I don't care if you've been reading my blog, and i won't ask if you've realise that my mood and stuffs have changed. Don't even bother to find out if i'm really smoking, nor am i taking drugs, becos i myself don't fucking care. Thanks for updating me on things that i don't even fucking know at all. And i want red bull from you.
He didn't even say goodbye to me. He didn't even tell me he's back with her.
What am i? Or who am i? Hah, i've realised i'm just nobody to him. He don't fucking care about how i feel, so i shall jolly well not care for him.
But can i do it? Half of my heart tells me to stop getting sad over the past and to let go of everything. but another half yearns for him, and wants to give him another chance to explain why he hasn't been finding me, and going to believe whatever he's going to say.
Why still hold on, when he has clean forgotten about me?
Why still reflash those memories whenever i saw a fullmoon?
Damn it.
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I predict i'll fail my amath test becos i mixed up chain rule with product rule and blah blah. Just got everything mixed up.
I confirm i'll fail my chem test, becos my last page was -blank-! i went to the toilet to vomit and spent around 10min there. When i came back, time's up. Argh, i think it's PE that makes me want to puke. ):
I miss Evon.
I miss Deno.
I miss the trios.
And i miss the girls.
I miss Xiang Yi. & I miss Lin Geng. I guess i shouldn't have played maple in the very first place. Then, i wouldn't have know who's xiang yi and lin geng.
Sometimes, it's not a very nice experience to miss someone. :o
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