Sunday, January 13, 2008
bored to death // 5:45 PM
i shall blog some other time ba... i want to excite myself by playing some games right now. i'm totally rotting right now.
Had wanted to ask dsx go eat, but then decided that on next Friday, boss, me, evon shall go eat roti praNta and i shall ask dsx along then.
Had wanted to go zhuzhu's house today to eat his food, but i've totally no idea where he lived, and hadn't messaged him. So in the end i stayed at home.
Messaged boss to say i'm sorry i woke up so late and unable to go ecp. And had started chattin with him, until his friends wanted me to go instead. *shocked* And the friend even called me and claimed that he won't start bbq until i reach there, offering to pay taxi fare for me. Nice fren u got there, boss. But my sis just rattled on and asked where i'm going, how can leave her eat dinner alone, and if my mommy let me go anot.
But, i seriously wished i've gone there and enjoyed the bbq food.
It's so much better than staying at home and doing nothing at all.
All right, i was reading. I was reading gossipgirl - the storybook evon had intro to me. not a bad book, it's quite nice. and with the words like [fuck] in there, it makes the book somehow not that formal, and better to get myself understanding the situation that the book is trying to say.
But i still somehow wished i had pulled dsx along and went to ecp with them.
=.=
I'm retarded.Naturally, -for me- it's quite hard to make friends with girls/women/ladies whom i don't know, especially those who are older than me. Perhaps because looking at how slim their figure is and the way they put make ups by putting eyeliner mascara lipsticks lipgloss perfume and whateversh*t, i feel i wasn't the kind who'd mixed with them, until i myself have learnt how to put up make ups myself and slimmed down. Oh, and perhaps looking at how bitchy their face is, it's a no-no for me to actually make friends with them. I will feel out. I will feel inferior to them. I will feel...like slapping them.(laughs out loud)
Maybe i get along better with people who looks nice the way they are without putting on make ups to cover their un-seen-able fugly faces.(opps?)
Yea, maybe i'd make friends with natural-faces girls no matter what their age were. I will be more friendly to them.(smiles)
But yet, i'm now yearning to learn how to put up make ups.Look, i told you i'm a retard. -_-"And naturally, -for me- guys rocks more than ever. Maybe i get along better with guys because i always hang out with boys since young. They are so much fun-ner and better than girls. They run, they play, they sweat, they swear, they do anything under the sun. (and i don't mean watching pornos and raping people)girls - some are just so sissy to even sweat. some are just so protective of their image that they refuse to join in the fun. some are just complete girlish with their solid-as-ever barbie dolls and disgusting flowery patterns all over the place. i just prefer someone sporty, someone who'd enjoy to play anything under the sun with guys and someone who'd let their hair down to enjoy every moment of fun.i'm not trying to say that i'm in that nicenice category i stated. and i don't mean all girls are as stuck up, proud and ass-hole-lic. perhaps i just don't understand them. And maybe i myself is stabbing myself with the knife as i'm stating all the disgusting facts of girls becos i've got 1% of myself falling into that fact.(lol)
and guys. maybe when i'm with those nicerrrrrrrrrrrr guys out there in the world, or maybe i'm with those closerrrrrrrrrrrrrrr guy-friends, it makes me forget about their age, their gender and all. I will somehow not care for their age and treat them as my age instead, which will somehow-somewhat-somewhy adds points in up-ing the friendship between us. and then, i will treat myself as the same gender as them, same status, etc. and that i'm able to do whatever they can do.(and i don't mean the number of push-ups, the amount of energy in the body, or how far one could run)
of cos, i still am a female with boobs and they still are males with you-know-what. =.=Lol, i'm just trying to say, when it comes to being friends with guys, i can just mix with them naturally and high myself up. Ehhh, maybe it dont applies to guys with stuck up attitudes and torturing facial expressions and also freaking-me-out characters....
argh, anything that is, guys are still the best, perhaps. =x
my girlfriendssssss : they rocks the second best. =x of cos i love evon, jean, tata, gina, mich, vivian and those girls who are closer to me and i say, they rock like hell (:
so in the end, maybe all those things above appears to be the reason why i have friends of the opposite sex more than friends of the same sex. hoorays for that.I'm tomboyish, i admit. but i'm trying to change ok. -.-
And as i finish this post up with craps, i realise i've typed so much that makes sense only to myself.
And and at the same time, i began to not-understand what effing bullshits i've typed.
And and and at last, i'm going to say again, that i think
i'm really a retard.=_="
oh, and that what i've said mean no harm no harm and no harm to all, if anybody think i'm secretly shooting arrows to shoo anyone away. *sumpa*this boring-ness is eating up my clever cells and leaving me with stupid ones. that explains why i'm such a retard as i type this post.
-roars-
i'm crapping again.........
