lessthan3

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

anger within // 11:32 PM

Went out with xiao you ji today.
Everyone was late, except michelle, and she was super angry with us.
Sorry!
But well, lucky she's not petty(:
My shifu is nice ok.
It was lucky she was smiling again later.

After awhile, it's like, we stopped doing homework. We gave up, since we all don't know how to do. Then we went for kfc. (frowns). And then, we went for... K-Box.
Shocked?
Surprised?
Astonished?

OPENYOURMOUTHSBIGGGGGGGGGGG.

We had our laughs, we had our fun.
I missed this group.
Perhaps, i'm back to being Sun Wu Kong. Perhaps, indulging in being 'high' will pull me away from problems i faced. Maybe alcohol helps. Maybe pain helps. But nothing beats laughter and fun, ain't it?

Firstly, i didn't managed to get any pictures from Michelle and Gina, for my present for Ferdinand. And i'm sure going to freak out because 13th is here! Ferdinand's going back soon! Argh.

Second, speaking of 13th. It's Yu Lun's birthday already. Wonder if i get to celebrate it with him this year? Honestly, maybe i'm not so lucky this year. He might have things on already, and forgot all about me.

Thirdly, my 9th hole is closing! I'm so angry. So fucking angry. I just can't put the earstick back! It kept bleeding when i tried twisting the earstick into the hole. I think my direction is wrong? Or i think there's something stuck inside, be it blood or the yellowish-eww-thingy. Oh God, i'm going to need the money to pierce another one soon. I must have 9!

Forthly, money. Thinking of that, i still owed Michelle the money for today's K-Boxing. Damn, why am i so poor. Ya fine, because i quitted work. But...i have loads of excuses for it. Ok, nevermind.

Fifthly, class outing is a disaster ok!? It's like so whatthefuckfuckfuck, everyone don't want to go. If you don't have a reason why you cannot make it, then just go lah! I can't see why is it so hard. It's not as if you're going to go and everybody's going to isolate you in one corner to weep your ass off. It's so disheartening, so saddening, so...omfg, i don't want to carry on... Why is this happening for our class? Michelle, you and Jean can go for the 2C outing, why not this? And Jean, you even stayed for the chalet! If you're going to tell me you're going to stay home and do your homework, i tell you i'm only going to believe that with the percentage of 1. Vivian said that YanMin got an idea to slap all those people who didn't make it tomorrow, on the school reopen day. What a nice idea. I will slap the whole class up down left right 360degree and a full-blast-smack on their butt. Argh. This is so driving me mad.

And, sigh. If Gina doesn't want to go, force her also no use. I give up lah, ok? Do what she want. And don't she ever apologise. :/ I'll just go and enjoy myself with Vivian and YanMin and those guys.

Sang my hearts out today. I can't believe my singing was actually not that very good. I need more practice.
Singing those songs, nevertheless reminded me of him.
Why is it so hard to forget?

I'm so un-important now, i feel like i'm invisible in his eyes. I feel that i'm so un-important, i could disappear without people knowing.
Thanks to people who had been cheering me up; thank you Samuel, thank you Fabian, thank you Winston. Bringing people's mood down shall now be my hobby, perhaps?

Disappointment.
I cause people that.
And people cause me that.
It's just...like a cycle.