Friday, November 2, 2007
-_- // 2:39 PM
Okay, i'll hush; i'll shut; i'll refrain from saying anything.
anything like IMISS___.(whoever that is to fill in the blank).What's the use of saying it? All i get back is : "i miss you too."
sighs. Missing someone feels terrible. And if i never even say that i miss you people, will you people even say that to me?
Take for example - my sweetheart. Yes, thanks for always coming to view my post; view my blog. But if you've never been here and see me write tons of imissmay and ilovemay, will you even say anything? i don't think you will. Or rather, i don't know if you will. Becos all you know is sashe, vannie, sooching, etc. YES, I'M DYING OF JEALOUSY PLS )': i feel so left out, so lonely. hmm, i'm sorry for even saying anything over here now:/ i miss sec1&2, where we shared anything with each other. I don't mean that i want you to tell me anything about what is happening around you, or telling me your secrets, but ask yourself, where am i now in your heart?Sometimes, i just don't understand friendship. Sometimes friendship takes up 99.9% of my life but sometimes i just feel like giving it a 0%. Sometimes friendship stuffs made me so happy, but sometimes it just
fucking hurts like hell.
And when i've realise all these, i guess everything is over. I won't say i miss anyone already. I'll just isolate myself where possible. I don't care already. I'll just entertain whoever comes to me and drown myself in music.
Why do some people just come to me when they need me and leave when they're ok? hurting.I've read Helena's blog.
"i think life was so smooth for me since young, everything went the way i wanted, till secondary school life came. ): things get screwed, so often, so often it's so pissing.
ugh, like this emo feeling sucks many many please. esp when i need to concentrate & study hard now >:( rawrrrrrr. like now i cant get the stuff in my head. i just keep thinking back on my life.
somehow. i just want to get away, go & start life afresh, somewhere really nice like the countryside, with somebody special&myfamily. :D like if that's possible. arseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. ):" i think she's so right. Everything was so smooth during the past, where i'm so innocent and whenever i said: i don't friend you liao!, it'll be cold war for days, but still get together in the end. And yes, till i stepped into sec life, where i find everything so important, so heartbreaking, and it's just not the way i wanted.
It always land me into the emo and lonely mood. very lonely. and very emo indeed..whatever, i shall stop here. bye lah.
Oh yes, this post is so not-emu-but-
effing-emo ): And thanks for chatting with me, PeiYing.
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