somehow, it's what i wanted to say. listen.



Until I Get Over You

[Verse 1]
Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain, every time I hear your name

[Chorus]
The sun won't shine since you went away
Seems like the rain's falling every day
There's just one heart, where there once was two
But that's the way it's gotta be,
'til I get over you

[Verse 2]
Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can't escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here

[Chorus]
The sun won't shine since you went away
Seems like the rain's falling every day
There's just one heart, where there once was two
But that's the way it's gotta be,
'til I get over you

'till I get over you

[Bridge]
When will this river of tears stop fallin'
Where can I run so I won't feel alone
Can't walk away when the pain keeps callin'
I've just gotta take it from here on my own
But it's so hard to let go

[Chorus]
The sun won't shine since you went away
Seems like the rain's falling every day
There's just one heart, where there once was two
That's the way it's gotta be,
Until I get over you~

That's the way it's gotta be,
Until I get over you.........

'till I get over you...

listen.



If It Breaks My Heart

[Verse 1]
Hold me closely
Baby one last time
Let me breathe in
Every passing moment
Kiss these lips Before you walk away
Take my hand Before you leave me lonely

Cuz i never wanted to hold you back or own you
I care enough to let this be goodbye

[Chorus]
And i will always love you
And i will always care
And i'll always remember all the good times we shared
I'll hang onto the memories
And let you go in style
And promise not to fall apart
Baby if it breaks my heart

[Verse 2]
You shared your life
You made me laugh
You dried my tears
And held onto the mourning
So if nothing last Looking back
Its been worth while Knowing you baby
But i have to say I was betting on forever
But baby if you have to then fly high

[Chorus]
And i will always love you
And i will always care
And i'll always remember all the good times we've shared
I'll hang onto the memories
And let you go in style
And promise not to fall apart
Baby if it breaks my heart

[Bridge]

[Coda]
And i will always love you
And i will always care
And i'll always remember all the good times we've shared
I'll hang onto the memories
And let you go in style
I'll promise not to fall apart
Baby if it breaks
If it breaks my heart

My heart......

It's worth smiling to have you;
It's worth crying to lose you;
It's worth my time to be with you...
...And it's worth my life to love you.

Oh, just want to add in, i'm not going to blog for the time being, i suppose.

I don't have the mood to blog.
Wanted to type alot of things, but i guess i'd better keep them to myself.
Maybe some things are better to be left untold, yea?

Bye then.
I'll go the beach myself! HUMF.

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yesterday, went to school for cca. And saw Sammy and Melvin.
Wasn't in my best of mood during choir, or should i say for the whole day.

I want to hug Sammy!

Sammy and Melvin were walking in another direction. But nevertheless, Sammy still walked over to me and said hi. Awww, thank you.

Then they disappeared and then reappeared awhile later. They waved at me another time and i saw Sammy stretched out his hand. I feel like running over and hug him, but i didn't. I just...need a hug.

Sighs.

-
I really don't know what i can do now.

Labels: emo-ing again

18/11/07
It's our 3rd week, but yet i can't see you.
Went out with Barney. Why barney? Because Barney is a dinosaur. Get it?
We took bus to vivo. And on the trip, there's this couple behind us by 3 sits.
I turned around and caught them kissing. So i tell Barney not to turn back. But he's so curious, and did a 180Degree turn, which is like, trying to act not-obvious but is very obvious. -_-
And, he didn't get to see any 'shows' when he managed to turn around.
-
Barney's hungry. So we went to eat. White Dog's Cafe, that's what it's called.


the table.


we sat on this kind of chair.


Oh. And i noticed something. Let me elaborate.

15/11/07
Went out with mom and sis. Sis wanted to get a skirt and shirt for a dinner that her company's going to hold. Must wear formal formal, and black is not allowed.


saw this in one of the shops. pretty nice..

then we went to eat. forgot what's the name called. the shop stated it's homemade. But the black pepper chicken is so oily and.. fattening :/


played with the things after eating.


oh, ya. the wall got show the things that they used to cook, i think. And then i saw this. KIDNEY. wah -_-

then we take bus to plaza sing`. and went to the big big This Fashion near plaza sing`.

Labels: emo-ing again

Went to read people's blogs.
Wanted to update myself from what i'm missing bah?

Reading Sammy's blog is so, wow, chim. Lol. Understooded but chim.
Sammy! :D
Don't know what happen in your life, but, if there's anything i can help, find me kay. Oh, I'LL BUY YOU OREO. Maybe that'll cheer you up a little for at least a second.

Read Dian Yong's blog. And then i realise she got a bf. Lol. Okay, anything that is.
Read Carissa's blog, and saw her pictures here and there:D
Read Gina's blog, hey girl, insects just sucks! They scare me off...big time.
Read Mich's blog, EH, GO UPDATE.

Hmmm. Will go read somemore people's blog if i possibly have the time.
Now, i'll just go do homework.

#1 shit: i haven touched homework for today and yesterday.
#2 shit: i'm always alone at home ):
#3 shit: -____- i want to go toilet already.

-
1 more hour! and the results i will be told. hopefully they win. (smiles)

Uh, taken my temperature. It was 37.07 DegreeCelsius.
Perhaps mrs fever-bacteria is packing up her things and leaving my body by tomorrow?
Oh, but mdm sore-throat-bacteria is still camping in my throat. (but i think she's dying)

So, hoorays for me. I hope it'd all be good by tomorrow :3

And then, i'd be the happiest girl in the world.

Oh no! But wait, i think miss flu caught me by accident. Dang it.

-
Everything went back to how it used to be.
I mere word 'i miss you' brought people back to me<3
A difficult word 'sorry' cancelled out all the unhappiness caused between us friends<3

Of course, there's ups and downs in life.
My life went down down down deep a few days ago. And now it had came up up up high.
Wonder how down it'll be next time? I hope i'm prepared ):

Bestest luck for your bball tournament for today and tomorrow:D

Show me your skills man!

Jia you jia you.

Went to find Auntie Amy today, for neuro feedback stuff.
My mom was cleared for her headache, and i'm cleared for my... sleepless nights? (hopefully)

Came home, and then *plopped*, i fell on the sofa, and rested myself.
I felt so tired, so exhausted, so uncomfortable.
(slaps the sore throat bacteria another 100times*)
And then what? I felt so cold.

And i hit the jackpot, i'm down with fever -_-
Hais. I longed for my mother to feel my forehead and confirm that i was really having a fever, but i guess i'm too old for her to mother-feel me.? My aunt cared for me even more than her :/

Whatever D:

Sore throat and fever, maybe adding cough and flu the following day?
):
Who will ever come visit me with a bowl of porridge? Or a get well card?
Ahhh, that will never happen...

When i want to fall sick, i didn't. Now, the stupid bacteria hits me at the wrong time.
(stabs the bacteria with a knife*)

Fever is ok. But i don't want sore throat! I don't even have the mood to even speak now :/
(double kick the bacteria* punch it* bodyslam it*)

ROAR, i'm going bananas.

I think i've been waking up too late everyday, hence i cannot sleep at night.

Yesterday went out with mom and sis to orchard, and after going to This Fashion near Plaza Sing`, we took 502 home. And it was a super long trip, because we make a big detour. As in, we took in the direction towards Suntec; not towards home.

Leg was super tired. Super super 'sour'. And guess what, i still sat down and did my homework. I did until 3, then went to brush my teeth then went to sleep. I was so energetic actually. I cannot get to sleep~ Argh.

Then woke up at 6.53am? Don't know why.
Oh, then i found out that i got sore throat.
It's very very uncomfortable ):
Very pain. (slaps the bacteria cell*) Ugh.
Message pple, then went back to sleep. Unfortunately, i woke up and slept and woke up and slept for the next few hours. :/
(slaps the bacteria cell a few more times*)

So i guess i'm not going to eat anything that's going to worsen my condition.


Bball tournament coming. This weekend!
Jia you k~

I'm beginning to wonder if the unknown tagger thing is a prank or not.
O_o


"Loved you yesterday, love you still; always have, always will."

Hey, to the unknown tagger.

I'm pretty sure who you are.

Come on. Don't play games. Sms me. Email me. Call me. Private-msg me. Do anything! Quickly reveal yourself to me luh. :'( Don't play already..

I'll be waiting. And no, i won't give in. You have to make the first move no matter how hard it is. I'm waiting okay! Don't make me wait too long.

-nights

3rd entry!


I want to go the beach.

this is my 2nd post.


And i'm here to curse the god damn stupid idiot in maple.
Playing in World D. D for Dephenus or whatever it is spelt.

Cheated my fame.

name: HorLicKx

HORLICKX, YOU BLOODY ASSHOLE. >:(
Go f*** your mom, b_stard. GRRRRRRR.

i'm going defame you for all i know. Shit you, HorLicKx.

Got on bed at around 11 yesterday?
And only feel asleep at around 2+am..
Woke up at 8am. And lie on bed till 1+..

Urgh, count yourself, how long have i been lying on the bed?!
And i only get to sleep for less than 6hours.

My sis came in to sleep at 2am.
So i asked her, what do you do when you can't sleep?
She told me her solution:
"think of a number, or think of something. Don't keep thinking of this, thinking of that. Concentrate on one number or one thing. Then it will calm yourself down, then you'll fall asleep."

Maybe that was a good idea. Maybe i was really thinking of this, thinking of that.
I thought of my rabbit... sighs. T_T
I thought of Mr.Dino.
I thought of him.
I thought of her.
I thought of sooooo many things.
And i guess that's why i can't sleep.?

Then my sis told me jokes. Gosh, so the lame!

#1
Qn: Why did the Irish man go to the rooftop?
Ans: Because the bartender said, "beer's on the house!".

#2
Qn: There's mad woman on the plane and she threw the toilet bowl out of the plane. Why?
Ans: Because she's a mad woman.

Qn: An elephant was crossing the road, and a car was driving towards it. But the car managed to stop before it hit the elephant. But how come the elephant still died?
Ans: The toilet bowl hit it.

#3
Qn: There was a cup and a glass wanting to cross the road. An old man tell them not to, because they will get killed by car. But the glass still cross the road, and in the end he got knocked down by a car. Why does the glass still cross the road?
Ans: Glass don't have ear. Cup got ear (handle).

Then my sis told me, got people say because the cup got handle, the old man hold onto the handle, that's why the cup cannot cross. The glass no handle for the old man to hold on to, so it cross the road. Then another person say because the glass is transparent, so the old man only told the cup. (but take note, is transparent, not invisible. lol). Then another person say it's because the cup uses it's handle and push the glass onto the road.

#4
*this is in chinese*
(know about the 5 elements? Jin, Mu, Shui, Huo, Tu.)
Qn: One day, Jin, Mu, Shui and Huo sat down to play majong. Who kept winning?
Ans: Shui. Because shui hu (water bottle).

Get it? hahaha. Must think abit then can get it.

Had this for brunch. Hmmm, eat till i wanna vomit :X
Camera's [macro] has a nice effect.

To the unknown who tagged,
i hoped you're the one who i was wishing it would be. And i am quite sure you really are the one.
Message me soon.
Oh, since you said hi, you should message me first. Yea, hoho.

Ya, you said that you treated me as a bestest friend. But how come i don't feel it? No i can't feel it. If you do, why didn't you come for me when i started to runaway from you? You just let it be.. You didn't ask why i did it, you didn't even wanna know why i did it, you cared BUT never cared that much. You made it clear, that if i were to stop this friendship, you will let it be. unfortunately, bestest friends never do that, do they? They probe, they ask, they settle. But no, you let it be.

So what now? I'm the bad girl? Oh yea, of course i am. I started the whole thing. Fine, if you wanna let it be, then fine with me.

Actually, i made a pact with myself. If you were to talk to me and ask me bout all this things, i would have told you, i would have been back to be your friend. Too bad, too bad you don't even wanna know, don't even wanna ask.

So you hack care lor? You treated it as if it's shang tian an pai, so you let it be. Ok, fine. Since you hack care already, why should i care so much.

Everything can be back to where it started. Everything can be back to square one. You thought it can't. Now, i'm telling you, it can. Will you still care?

i had my phone back.
thanks dude.

yes, i miss my sony ericsson phone :3

watched BEEMOVIE today at Plaza Singapura. I love that place. That's where i bought my favourite perfume! Ok, i didn't buy it. Hong Lun bought it for me, and there's still half a bottle. Love the smell. Yea, bee movie was bee-ish. Lots of bees and honey and whatever :x

Go watch if you want. Oh, and don't miss the Game Plan too!

Take me to Marina. I love Marina Square too. Oh, or take me to Bugis. I've quitted, so i'll be quite free. Jio me out soon, anybody.

Wonder if i can still go out with WC on Tuesday? I don't think i can go out with him tomorrow.
-_- How can he ask me to go out together with him and his friends, and asking me to pretend to be his girlfriend?! Oh crap. Of course i won't go... :x

Thanks for tagging, people.

Yes, as it has been obvious, i'd been ignoring her all along.
I hadn't speak to her for ages.
Does she think it doesn't hurt for me?

It hurts hell lot - both for you and me.
But what can i do?

Sorry, but those flashbacks of him, who said goodbye, kept coming back. I can't control myself. To escape from those flashbacks, i have to keep myself from facing you.

Let me calm down first, girl.

I just...don't know how to face you.

I just feel and think pessimistic (whatever or however it is spelt) that you'd "steal" my friends away.
Everything is just my fault. Sorry k.

For this holiday, just let me calm down. Let time heal me.


Take care, everyone.

Yea, this is my 2nd post.

Samuel showed me a ring he had hours and hours and hours ago. No, that doesn't come from me! Yea... He betrayed me. ):
=x
So sammy, let's break up. Lol. I'll stop being your boyfriend. OH. BUT PLEASE, call me along when you want your tongue pierced!!

Daryl, actually wanted to tell you to stop emo-ing. BUT. Now i feel like telling you, let's emo together :3 let's paint our nails black together! ROAR!!!


right now, i feel much better after saying out everything to shifu. if there isn't ____, shifu will 100% be the most important friend in my heart. Reason i couldn't put shifu as the most important friend, is becos she's not only mine. She belongs to ____, she belongs to her pri school friend.

I will. I will find someone who could be my bestest friend, and belongs only to me. Maybe that day will never come until the day before i die. But i will keep on trying. I will keep on trying until i'm contented. And of course, the more i try, mayb i'll get more heartbreaks. Then, maybe i'll just cry my hearts out whenever there is a heartbreak. Then it'll be in my memory, and i will carry on. Is that a good idea?

Now, i hope that the things that are weighing me down will quickly go away.
i want to happy again.
i want to be cheerful again.
i want to stay with him happily, and not let anything ruin my mood when he's there for me.
Yea, so God, please, let those things go away quickly, and bring my old self back.

But whatever it is, shifu's still the one i'll seek to before i find the right best friend. thanks shifu.

Labels: emo-ing again

For heaven's sake. I wish i could just disappear and not ruining people's impression on myself ):

Yes, i want to quit because of somebody. So? Nobody could do anything.

Yes, i'm so jealous. I'm so greedy, because i want to keep all my friends to myself. But when you came, i have no priority at all. Build up your relationships with them. Make friends with them. Go out with them. Forget about me. Steal them away from me.

For all i care, i don't want to give a damn anymore. I wish i could just say - i hate you to the core.


Just a few minutes ago, fengheng talked to me, and i learnt that 3 and more of his friends had gone to Ichiban for interview. From that, i screamed in my head: NO, I DON'T WANT TO QUIT! Yes, i want i want i want to make friends with them. That was my motto for life - make friends with everyone everytime i had a chance. No doubt, i want to straight away work and get to know them. My feeling was just like a wolf kana attracted by a whole field of sheeps.

I was so freak-out-ly-excited, till .. i remembered you. Then i said to myself, no. Maybe i shouldn't go back to work. I'll leave them for you. I'll leave them to talk to you and make friends with you and then go out with you. Fine, whatever i do, i'll just lose to you.

Wanted to talk to fengheng... Wanted to ask my kor about things i wanted to know. i wanted to know how he felt. but he said he gtg. Disheartening ):

Yes. Infer from my post. Infer already? The answer is jealousy.


*sighs*
It's over. I'm through with you.
I'm not Sun Wu Kong anymore. I quit. Ok?
Nevertheless, michelle, you're still my 'shifu' :]
I'm so impatient for you to be online. I wanna tell you so many things. I wanna ASK you so many things. ):
BUT OH, you were online all along. You didn't probe what i wanted to tell you. It's okay. I'll hush.

oh...whythefuck am i crying?

Labels: emo-ing again

Urgh, it's like a week had past. And i still don't have the pictures! D:
Fustrating. Because i couldn't blog. And will soon forget what i wanted to blog. Rahhh.

OH, ANDDD.
News Report to those girl classmates who thought D____ and i were together..
WE ARE NOT TOGETHER[fullstop]


"Whenever life seems to drift you away from me, I can't help but cry. You've grown to be such a part of me that without you life is no more than a desperate sigh. They do say love comes and goes, and to that I disagree. So, here's my hand, take it and don't let go of me."

Okay, i'll hush; i'll shut; i'll refrain from saying anything.
anything like IMISS___.
(whoever that is to fill in the blank).

What's the use of saying it? All i get back is : "i miss you too."
sighs. Missing someone feels terrible. And if i never even say that i miss you people, will you people even say that to me?

Take for example - my sweetheart. Yes, thanks for always coming to view my post; view my blog. But if you've never been here and see me write tons of imissmay and ilovemay, will you even say anything? i don't think you will. Or rather, i don't know if you will. Becos all you know is sashe, vannie, sooching, etc. YES, I'M DYING OF JEALOUSY PLS )': i feel so left out, so lonely. hmm, i'm sorry for even saying anything over here now:/ i miss sec1&2, where we shared anything with each other. I don't mean that i want you to tell me anything about what is happening around you, or telling me your secrets, but ask yourself, where am i now in your heart?

Sometimes, i just don't understand friendship. Sometimes friendship takes up 99.9% of my life but sometimes i just feel like giving it a 0%. Sometimes friendship stuffs made me so happy, but sometimes it just fucking hurts like hell.

And when i've realise all these, i guess everything is over. I won't say i miss anyone already. I'll just isolate myself where possible. I don't care already. I'll just entertain whoever comes to me and drown myself in music.

Why do some people just come to me when they need me and leave when they're ok? hurting.

I've read Helena's blog. "i think life was so smooth for me since young, everything went the way i wanted, till secondary school life came. ): things get screwed, so often, so often it's so pissing.
ugh, like this emo feeling sucks many many please. esp when i need to concentrate & study hard now >:( rawrrrrrr. like now i cant get the stuff in my head. i just keep thinking back on my life.
somehow. i just want to get away, go & start life afresh, somewhere really nice like the countryside, with somebody special&myfamily. :D like if that's possible. arseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. ):" i think she's so right. Everything was so smooth during the past, where i'm so innocent and whenever i said: i don't friend you liao!, it'll be cold war for days, but still get together in the end. And yes, till i stepped into sec life, where i find everything so important, so heartbreaking, and it's just not the way i wanted. It always land me into the emo and lonely mood. very lonely. and very emo indeed..

whatever, i shall stop here. bye lah.

Oh yes, this post is so not-emu-but-effing-emo ): And thanks for chatting with me, PeiYing.

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Yea yea, i can't blog yet lah. I don't have the pictures! D:

So please, wait for the pictures, continue to tune in to my blog, and please go tag -_-
Yes, i said please. So, go on - Flood my tagboard!

May, pls send me the photos, and ask Sharlynn to send me too. Quick~
And i have to get photos from sister's friend for her birthday party...

And anyway, i'm going to put the formatting thing as 'show 1 post' for the page. As in, it's only going to show 1 post for the page. So if you miss anything... please go to Past and click on the month for my previous posts. I update almost daily okay! :p


oh anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SISTER :D
Turned 21! Maybe will get her a present someday :X

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